kill me or love me

if I didn't know you, I'd rather not know
It will be short, it will take all your breath. It will not be simple, it will become your will. Adrienne Rich (Final Notations)

Today I am jealous.

Today I miss you. And it seems like everyday I miss you more than the last. Are there degrees of how much you can miss someone? It’s gotten quite severe—my insides hurt without you, my sanity comes and goes, and sleep is nigh impossible.

It’s stifling, too, these feelings for you that linger and linger and go on and on, sometimes flaring until it feels like there is nothing but you and I have no use anymore.

I hate myself for it. 

I feel even more alone. More alone than moving to a new country by myself for an entire year.

I feel alone in my feelings, too. 

I want to rip off your logic and make passionate sense to you. I want to ride in the swing of your hips. My fingers will dig in you like quotation marks, blazing your limbs into parts of speech. Jeffrey McDaniel (via ohmissnatalie)

(Source: ohbabyitsnatalie)

Love is just a history that they may prove and when you’re gone I’ll tell them my religion’s you. Lady Gaga